Been awhile.

It’s been awhile since my last post, but that doesn’t mean I was backtracking.  As of today, I’ve finally hit ONE-derland.  I believe I was in about grade 11 (so around 1985 or 1986) when I last weighed that.  It’s hard for me to wrap my brain around.  Here is my latest “before” and “in progress” picture I took after a shopping trip in which I was able to only purchase clothing from the non-plus sized side of a store.  I don’t know that most people understand what that’s like after over 28  years of exclusively plus sized clothes shopping.

111 lbs gone before and after

This month has been emotional on other levels.  After posting this picture on FB, certain family members made slightly veiled comments about someone “bragging” and needing to learn to not do it as it gives a different impression than the intent.  That hurt.   I’m not public with my journey, whether it’s how much weight I’ve lost, various non scale victories or exercise successes, to brag.  I do it partly because I want accountability.  I have a long history of giving up on many attempts at changing my health, and I’m tired of it.  Staying public helps with those rough times in which it would be easy to throw in the towel.  The other big reason I stay public is that I am not special.  I don’t have more time than anyone else, special skills or a bigger supply of motivation than anyone else.  I believe that if I can do this, anyone can, and I want to inspire others to do the same if that’s what they want.  I have connected with many others on this same journey, and it’s so helpful to be trying to inspire and help others do what I’m doing.  They are helping me for sure!

Then our family got devastating news.  Just days ago my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer.  It’s fast moving and I am scared.  She had a marble sized lump a few months ago and now it’s the size of an orange.  I haven’t even processed this yet, but it’s going to be tough on the family for a long time, I’m sure.

Rambling post today, but I wanted to get this blog active again.