Size 14! A Birthday and Another New Experience!

I haven’t posted for a few weeks since the 5K, but life has been moving forward.  I’ve been continuing my nutrition and exercise for the most part.  I don’t know why, otherwise busy life events, but I haven’t kept up with my couch to 5K training but I’m still doing all of my usual Zumba classes, weight training/toning class and yoga/pilates fusion class.  Nutrition has been pretty good, with the exception of a few days I had “girls’ nights” with a friend plus my birthday dinner out.  My weight is mostly staying the same, but people keep commenting that I must be losing (even people I don’t know well!) which has been great.

For my birthday, my husband gave me a gift card for a clothing store I only recently started shopping at so I went shopping for some new work clothes and was excited to discover that I was able to buy 2 dresses and a skirt in size 14.  I honestly can’t wrap my head around that number so it was exciting.  The next day, I decided to go shopping for some new underwear and that was a new experience too!  I actually walked into a real lingerie store, and didn’t get any strange looks.  Bought myself 7 pairs of new underwear and got them home and was actually surprised that they fit.  I don’t know if anyone out there understands my joy, but it was huge for me!

So, it’s been a great couple of weeks.  Now I just have to kick my own butt as far as getting back to the running training.

Bringing in the New Year With Hope

I haven’t been one for New Year’s resolutions for a long time because of all of the years I’ve said, “I’m going to lose weight” and didn’t follow through with any long term results.  This year is no exception, other than I am making several promises to myself.  I promise to continue on with the journey I’ve been on and keep pushing the boundaries that have been in place all of my life.  I promise myself time and energy spent on myself, knowing it’s worth it and that I can give more to others when I give more to myself.  I also promise to work on being gentler on myself and my emotions in hopes that this gives me more peace.

2013 was for the most part a great year.  But this past few months have been difficult and I’m finding it hard to want to celebrate a good year.  So instead, I’m looking ahead and planning for 2014 to be MY year for peace, joy, accomplishments yet to be made and limits to be pushed.  It’s not selfish, it’s about taking care of myself as it’s only me I have to depend on.

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Christmas has come and gone…

And I couldn’t be happier that it is.  This was probably one of the least enjoyable Christmases I’ve ever had.  More family drama than ever and in my already heightened emotional state, it wasn’t pretty.  Oh, and to top it off, my 9 year old daughter ended up with a stomach bug that resulted in projectile vomiting at my parent’s place, all over their bathroom including cupboards, floor, walls, tub and all over the toilet.  And because of my sister’s weakened state of health after her first chemotherapy treatment a couple weeks ago, my husband ended up disinfecting the bathroom with alcohol before taking her home early.  T’was a fun night!

I’m sure you are wondering how this all has affected my nutrition and exercise routine.  Well, I gave myself the week of Christmas “off” and know that there were days I ate to stuff my feelings and to the point of being uncomfortable.  And it’s now been 9 days since my last workout.  But, today was back on the wagon nutrition wise and I’m hoping tomorrow to get in a workout.  I am not going to get on the scale until I’ve been back into my routine for a week or so in hopes some of the damage I’ve done will be taken care of.

I’m quite sure many people don’t agree with giving myself permission to take a week “off” my plan, so I think I should explain my thinking on this.  I’ve been at this for almost 2 years now, and I know that I would never have made it this far if it wasn’t for the occasional times I give myself permission to do this.  I believe this is “real life”.  I know I probably gained more than a few pounds, and that’s ok because I know how to get it off, and I haven’t thrown in the towel completely.  I’m actually excited to get back into my routine and as part of my Boxing Day shopping, today I purchased a jacket that I intend to wear in my planned outdoor runs.

This past year has been full of ups and downs.  Lots of ups related to getting my life back due to this journey, and some serious downs that were like an emotional punch to the stomach.  This sums up my thoughts about this year nicely:

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Vegas!

I am off to Vegas today for 6 nights.  While I will definitely be making better choices than I have in past years, I am fully expecting that the scale will have gone up a couple pounds when I return.  I am hoping that the crazy amount of walking and the fact that I’m bringing my gym clothes and planning to use the hotel gym is going to offset some of the eating and drinking.  I am going to be cognizant of the fact that I have lost 100 pounds and celebrating that with my friends and hubby when he arrives on the 4th day.